Wednesday, February 25, 2009'♥
Stop the bleedings
Take the pains away
I just wanna be in my own world now.
goodbyes.
drinkdrinkdrink.
Zombie@2/25/2009 06:45:00 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2009'♥
Super tiring weekend.
Friday:
-lunch at tamp
-vivo
-retail therapy
-dinner
-home
-ecp
-awful supper @ hkg cafe
-drinks & chilled
-home
-COMA
Saturday:
-woke up past noon
-mdis open hse (sucked)
-light dinner @ cwp
-S.H.E
-slacked ard
-drinks & chilled
-supper
-home
-COMA
Finally.
Got to rest at home for the whole of today.
Work tmr. Sigh.
How long can things last this way.
When at times, it seems like we are miles apart.
Zombie@2/22/2009 07:16:00 PM
Thursday, February 19, 2009'♥
Struggled with myself again this morning
I hope to fall really sick soon
So i can officially get myself 2 days MC w/o feeling guilty
Everything seems so meaningless now.
Life seems so dead.
Im just like a walking corpse.
I need something to numb myself.
Dozens of booze & fags please.
Cheer me up, make me feel happy.
Zombie@2/19/2009 01:02:00 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009'♥
Didnt wanna go work this morning
But finally after much thoughts
I struggled n dragged myself to work. z_z
Such good girl right. hahas.
My eyes keep wanting to shut now. Omg.
2 more days to my long weekend.
N it seems like 2 months to me. =(
Then... early in the morning...
I got tricked by our co-worker in China fatory AGAIN
ARGHHHHHHH. WHY!!!!!!!
This is so irritating! FUCK.
SO NOT FUNNY.
My weekend is already fully planned by now.
Im so very very busy kaes. Bwahahas.
Village at Heeren closed down already.
Like since when & why!?!?!
Anybody knows?
I got no appetite for lunch today.
I just wanna sleep so much.
F*cking random.
Stoned.
Zombie@2/18/2009 10:23:00 AM
Tuesday, February 17, 2009'♥
Marche for dinner tonight
But im right now craving for subway -_-"
Part of me feels lighter now
Aft the "chilling" session during lunch
I guess im back on track now
So, decides to further my dip in biz management
But i HATE to do it ALONE lah.
so lonely... =(
who interested to do this course also PLS TEXT ME!
Though things are consider ok now
I still feel agitated easily
Idky.
Zombie@2/17/2009 03:27:00 PM
Monday, February 16, 2009'♥
IM HAVING SUPER BAD CRAVE FOR MARCHE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!
who wanna go eat with me?
*zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*
Monday blues...
Moodless.
Zombie@2/16/2009 04:22:00 PM
Friday, February 13, 2009'♥
Sometimes i feel...
- not a single person alive understands me
- nobody knows what im thinking abt 99% of the time
- ppl doesnt bother to digest words from me
- take things for granted when im nice to them
And sometimes, i feel its always happening all the time.
Why.
Over the years, i changed.
I curbed my temper to the very extreme minimal.
I no longer resort to violence.
Attitude problems hardly exist.
I learnt to open up. Smile more, joke ard, talks alot (at times).
I wanna be nice to people around me 'coz i feel they deserve it.
They shouldnt be scared of me coz you dont get scared of someone u look up as a FRIEND, right.
So. I changed for the better, for the sake of myself.
Problems surfaced.
Time and again, ppl take things for granted.
Then retreat again when i got so fed up and fuck things upside down.
Why do humans always got such disgusting attitudes in them?
They cant treasure anything good they have on hand.
They got the urge to screw things up so badly time n again.
Whatever things you dislike, they will just wanna do it even more. (esp when they know thats what u hate about)
They assume that, they will be forgiven AGAIN.
But too bad. =)
Unknowningly. Disappointments, angers, frustrations & all other emotions start arising.
Tied up in a very very extreme tight knot.
Then after, tolerance level needs to be damn high.
Once BURST. Then thats it. Too bad again.
Thats me.
Zombie@2/13/2009 02:38:00 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2009'♥
Been feeling rather emo lately
Idky. Period? Hopefully.
Things seem to be all ok on surface for me.
But in actual fact, its so not very.
Been thinking quite alot these days.
ARGHHHH! I feel like killing!
Time is so not enough for me already.
N its gonna be worst now.
M i just lousy at juggling stuffs or what.
Why do i feel SO suffocated.
I thought i should feel happy that my wish finally comes true?
Why am i starting to get so worry about stuffs that r not even happening?
This is so not me. SO NOT ME.
Why do i have to hide behind this fucking mask again!
I dont feel like talking!
I dont feel like laughing!
I dont feel like doing anything!
I just crave for alcohols & fags.
Its been weeks, n i still dread going to work.
I tried to be determine & i wanna stay strong to fight against all odds.
Again, im just lousy.
Im bad at copping with all these idiotic stuffs esp STRESS.
N its turning things upside down flat.
I cant take it anymore. Seriously.
I feel really upset, frustrated and lethargic.
All tied up. I wanna break free so much.
But consequences?
Why is there always so much responsibilities tied to whatever things i do.
Cut it.
Im drained enough. Really.
Zombie@2/12/2009 03:32:00 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2009'♥
I found many many old school english songs on this website
I found many many songs that i wanted for the longest time but just cant find
I can't download them now 'coz im in office
But its very ok. Im not gonna complain. Hahas.
It feels really nice listening to songs that i'd always love.
N It makes me a happy girl! =)
HEHS!
Zombie@2/10/2009 11:09:00 AM
Thursday, February 05, 2009'♥
I felt worst like shit
Thank god there'r million of stuffs for me to rush & clear
To keep me busy for 9 hours
Fought back the tears really really hard
I tried not to think abt it
But somehow my heart just starts aching again
Puffy eyes, heartaches, feeling giddy, gastric
All & all everything just make me feel so worst
Things are once again built on lies
Lies that lead to such miseries
Filled up with emptiness...
I wished to die for this once
Im gg to for a night. Tonight. Now.
Zombie@2/05/2009 06:49:00 PM
Wednesday, February 04, 2009'♥
DISAPPOINMENT
much as i expected...
Zombie@2/04/2009 05:49:00 PM
Tuesday, February 03, 2009'♥
I had serious 'bad eye' day today
That causes me to be damn late for work. Cb.
I feel like taking leave to just laze around at home for as much as i like.
But i cant 'oz I need money. So i gotta work. Fuck.
Havent been resting good & enough ever since like... weeks before CNY?
IM REALLY SUPER DUPER ULTRA ULTRA TIRED ALREADY KNOW!!!!
Im craving for delifrance breakies. N Cafe Cartel's too.
I needa stop taking cab to work already before i go really broke.
I need a hair cut & i need to buy many many stuffs & i need to pay my cc bill.
*SCREAM OUT LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*
Oks, very random.
Back to work.
Zombie@2/03/2009 09:35:00 AM
Monday, February 02, 2009'♥
Dept. lunch at Spring Court sucked big time!
Im barely full and the food are omfg C.M.I lah.
N its only 4 now.. 3 more hrs to go..
My stomach is already protesting!
ARRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Zombie@2/02/2009 03:57:00 PM
Sunday, February 01, 2009'♥
Friday Night - Had our reunion dinner at Villa Bali
Its all Thai & Indian food there, and we had mainly Thai food.
Food is ok, but some dishes were so very salty. OMG.
Chilled after dinner, drank a little over at their bar.
Then, went down to Clinic
2nd round of drinkings, Burborn! My LIKE!! HAHA!
Mel was so troublesome!
She kept wanting to change place, from sofa to wheelchair, then from wheelchair back to sofa again. Irritating lah pls!
Saw Jayius there, caught up a lil with her before we left for Ginza
3rd round of drinkings, with some card games played
By then, im already so damn steamed i think i almost fall asleep there.
Wanted to watch Love Matters on Sat, but cancelled. =<
Hope im able to catch it on Thurs night. Yeah..Hopefully.
Gonna upload the pics took on Fri in the next post.
I wanna go lie down now first.
IM SO DAMN F**KING HUNGRY LAH!
Zombie@2/01/2009 03:07:00 PM